i think it’s time for me to acknowledge the fact that some friends see something in me. that’s the reason why they come to me when they feel bad, disappointed, hurt, dismayed or simply down. i always dreaded the fact that i might not have anything to say to make them feel alright and the thought of having to say the wrong words, even if they are the truth, might not make things easier for them. it’s scary sometimes but having the ability to say 2t words per minute has its advantage too. i get to say stupid things that can make them laugh.
why am i bringing this up? it’s because a friend of mine is actually going through a lot lately. it’s long overdue already and she needs to move on but sometimes life has its way of pushing the obvious. life did that to her.
to my fellow vampire, amorgatory, i love you and you know very well i want the best for you. even if you don’t say anything about what you are going through, i can feel the pain and the struggle. you know you can always call me and don’t worry about life. you will be fine. i know that’s not therapeutic enough to say but all wounds heal. they all do. by the way, i’ll be seeing you now and we’ll binge over pizza to make you feel alright. there’s no defeat in love, friend, only love. like i always say, breakups only mean self improvement and i am happy to say that you are being kind to yourself now and actually improving. letting go and moving on doesn’t mean you are nothing. it means you have a very bright life waiting for you to live it. lab ya, murat, and i know you know it. life will be kinder now. i promise you.
here’s a song for every person whose heart has been broken, be it intentionally or not. read the lyrics and hold on to hope. THE SUN’S GONNA SHINE ON EVERYTHING YOU DO.
Say it’s true,
Black and blue
I can share your situation
Been holding our emotions back
Will only make us cry
If you go, I know
But you know, it ain’t so serious anyway
When the clouds arise we’ll live on…
Ocean Drive Don’t know why (Don’t know why) You’re so blue (So blue) The suns gonna shine on everything you do
And the sky (And the sky)
Is so blue (So blue)
The suns gonna shine on everything you do
He left you, black and blue,
Without a word of explanation
And he took your love for granted and
He left you high and dry
You know someday
When you’ll wonder what you see in him anyway
What that days arrives we’ll live on…
Ocean Drive
Don’t know why Don’t know why)
You’re so blue (So blue)
The suns gonna shine on everything you do
And the sky (And the sky)
Is so blue (So blue)
The suns gonna shine on everything you do
i was not in the mood to work yesterday so i pestered everyone in my YM. i was bored and not motivated. what can i do? so there… while chatting to a lot of them and actually left some messages to those who were hiding and been invisible, i discovered something. and again, out of boredom, chinismis ko sarili ko. yun nga lang hindi ko akalain na bigla itong magiging malaki… tingnan niyo na lang kung san napunta ang pagchichismis ko sa sarili ko. isipin niyong nagawan pa ng iba ng theme song ang chismis na yan. natuwa at natawa naman ako.
since tinatanong na lang din naman ni emoboy kung ano paborito kong kanta at nagdiclare na lang din naman si rio na dapat na theme song sa nangyari kahapon kaya ito…. hindi ko kagustuhan yan at alam kong sobrang gasgas na ng kantang yan pero in lieu of my katangahan, kachismisan at para naman makilig ang dentistang si rio at ng lalo akong tuksuhin ni mix, eto….. yoko nyan pero pag aksayahan ko na lang din ng space at ng mapangunahan ko na rin ang iba… (hahahah!) walang sense…hindi ko rin alam kung nagiging defensive ako nito o nagmumukhang pinagbibigyan ko lang si rio.. hahahaha! o sige na… kopyahin ko na lang din ang drama ni tapsi… O SIGE NA… AKO NA ANG MASAMA… AKO NA ANG MADUMI… teka, hindi bagay… pinapakilig ko ang ibang tao pero hindi dapat ganyan ang aking linya… O SIGE NA… KINIKILIG KAYO KASI KINIKILIG AKO PERO HINDI EH… ang labo pa rin…
ayan… yung song na yan dapat hindi para sakin… dapat kay rio yan at kay…… sino nga ba? at para kay emo… lalong nadagdagan ang mga favorite songs ko kasi pinahaba mo… pero itong kantang to walang kinalaman sa mga paborito kong kanta. pinagbibigyan ko lang si rio kasi… kinikilig sya…
kaya ang lesson: hwag itsismis ang sarili kung walang magawa..
i couldn’t sleep last night. i took the RC of the tv and when i turned it on, MYX was playing classics! i know the kids now might not have heard this but i like this one… yes… corny.. sige na…. but i like it… cool it now by new edition.
staring at the monitor made me realize one thing this afternoon. i take control of my life when i make resolutions. so here i am telling myself that i have to let go of all the hurt and whatever “negative” feelings i had. hold on to them? what for, right? now i have to keep my mouth shut and savor the message of this song. once again, i found solace in songs like this… i guess, i found me again.
here’s let it be by the beatles.
When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be. Yeah
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdrom, let it be.
And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
whenever i relax and needed to have some sort of meaning with what i’m going through, i listen to music like BEWITCHED by ELLA FITZGERALD. it calms me, rejuvinates me and somehow i get to fall in love with life again… i am in love with life but sometimes i hate it too. does that mean i have a love-hate relationship with it?
