everything had to stop for me because i have to take care of my sick brother. he’s in the hospital now and is being observed because the doctors can’t rule out anything yet. anyway, i have been spending a lot of my time in the hospital and i got tired of Dr. House. I had to date Chuck and Sarah Walker (of the tv series Chuck) and Clark Kent and Lana Lang (Smallville) to get me out of boredom.
anyway, going back to the hospital brings back that sort of spark whenever i like something. as you all know i’m a nurse. when we brought my brother to the ER, i can feel the excitement of having to be there. i like ER duties. i like giving care to those who needed it instantly. blood, needles, wounds don’t scare me easily now. i like the idea that i get to ambubag a patient while trying to figure out what to do next. the adrenaline rush… i can’t explain it really… having to apply pressure to a wound… having to insert an IV… to inject medicines… it’s like i’m having my own world when i’m in the emergency room.
what’s more exciting is having to fetch a patient or bring a patient by ambulance. it feels like i’m invincible. now i remember my experience when we were trying to fetch a very toxic patient from another hospital and they didn’t endorse that we need to bring a suction machine because the patient’s secretion had to be suctioned. the doctor who came with us decided to bring the patient even without it. you know what happened? the ambulance stopped in the middle of the road. something was wrong with it and we were stuck with a patient who was really in danger in drowning in her own secretions! and do you know what’s worse? it was raining! even the orderly didn’t understand how i was able to get out of the ambulance holding 2 IVs while ambubaging the patient. that was really an experience!
there’s one thing i hate about hospital duties though. there are really persons who are very hard to get along with. it’s like their favorite past time is to torture other people by saying things that are not supposed to be said. nurses and doctors should be empathic but sometimes they(we) are the one who speaks out of the line. that’s why you get to see patient’s loved ones making a scene because nurses and doctors are not therapeutic in dealing with people.
of course, there is always gossips anywhere and that does not exclude hospitals. and yes, hospitals have its own version of scandals too. it’s between a male doctor and a female nurse or an intern and with a nurse or a doctor… it’s all messed up.
despite of those things, i really like taking care of sick people and even sick, arrogant ones. the sick patients are not really the hardest people to deal with. it’s their loved ones. but then it goes with package. they are affected too and sometimes they don’t know how to deal with the situation. patience and understanding have to be stretched to avoid confrontations.
so there. i’ve blab again without knowing as to where this topic is going. i have to go now to catch up with the attending physician because i was questionning the intern’s prescription. i’m no doctor but i do understand some stuff too.
have a great day everyone while i get myself stuck with Clark Kent and Lana Lang to finish the 7 seasons of smallville. yep, dibidi marathon….
kung pinoy ka at ikaw ay isang nars na kukuha pa lang ng nclex exam, mag iwan na lang ng email address ninyo sa comment box sa baba. baka makakatulong ako. hihi! sabi nga nila kelangan magtulungan tayo. baka sakaling sa paraan na to eh yumaman ang bansa natin financially.
it’s so hard to write sometimes when i’m being controlled by such strong emotions. the surge of thoughts is rapidly filling my mind and to organize them is a failure.
i am not working now because i’m trying to figure out what to do with my life. as much as i want to deny that i don’t get affected with the movement of immigrant visas for nurses, my irritability has just to show. it peeks in my mind like a paparazzi waiting for the right shot or a boxer ready to pounce at me every middle of the month.
i used to argue with my boyfriend that i have to take up nursing because i see life bleak here in the philippines. although i am living a very comfortable life here, i just want the assurance of stability.
my mind was actually focused on new zealand. it has a socialist type of governance but not communist. you pay higher taxes but it goes back to you with services enough to satisfy you. it’s the second most safest place on earth and the most ideal country for rearing a family. it is clean and quiet. why shouldn’t i go there?
my family’s greatest worry is that we don’t know anyone from there. if something happens to me, they have no one to contact. this frustrates me a lot because it feels like i’m being imprisoned in an invisible cage. i couldn’t move on and start life on my own. i am an adventurous being and the thought of being drawn back is really off of my understanding.
so what’s the best option for everyone? america. okay. america is nice and everything but it’s not just ideal for me. have you seen the news lately? i don’t want to be imprisoned by my own money and material belongings. a friend of mine do not answer or open her door when someone rings their doorbell if nobody called in advance that they will be coming over. why? because she is afraid that it might be somebody who will hurt her or her family. then the elders who migrated there a long time ago are complaining about their children had already adapted the american way of living. i know it’s not wrong but we here in the philippines are better off than our cousins there in america. why? we are all college graduates and a lot of us are focus on work. we don’t have issues about children bringing over their boyfriends in there room and you don’t know what’s happening in there. we don’t have children go missing for three days only to find out that they were out with their friends.
i don’t want to pollute the mind of my future children that freedom and everything that goes with it is okay without discipline. you see, i still believe that in discipling a child, you should not spare the rod. i will go directly to jail if i would do that.
but then again, why america? because no matter what other people say, america still offers a lot of opportunities. our lives are all patterned and defined in the way america has influenced us. from values to schools, fashion trends, music… it just doesn’t end. the american culture is the nearest thing we almost have in common in terms of living our everyday lives. that’s the reason why a lot of us do not have a hard time adjusting once we step foot in their soil. and don’t you think the Filipinos have truly invaded america? when you are there, just look everywhere… you will see us everywhere.
so to see the visa bulletin last night was really a big blow. no immigrant visas available yet for hopefuls like me even if everything has been lodged as directed by the government agencies that deals with my application. news have been spurring out everywhere that they are in need of a lot of nurses. i just can’t seem to feel that. i can’t seem to connect the news with what’s really happening now because everything seems to be a lie. my life is being placed at the mercy of those who are giving that key to my future… the one that will reunite me with my boyfriend, for the stability in life and for a better future for my family. all it takes for those things to happen is a stamp that will say i am okay to work there and live my life.
so since it’s so farfetched, i’m off to look for other countries who are willing to utilize my capacity or if not, i’m staying here and go big with our business. i am not letting america stopping my life just because it is playing gods with my future. if it will open for me, then okay. if not, hehehehhe! i am good. it’s america’s lost. let them suffer. i just hope that they don’t grow old alone because no one will take care of them.
yep, i’m sourgraping but who wouldn’t when america seems to be offering the best of everthing only to leave you in mid air? the benefits are good, the salary is good… i just don’t get it! they swarm to us like as if there is no tomorrow but when you give your hand to them, they suddenly place you in a cloud of uncertainty. i hate it when i’m out of control.
anyway, i allotted this day as my thinking day. i have to decide once and for all what to do with this predicament. i can’t wait for america to happen. i have to live my life not half meant because i really hate it when my neck is being held by someone else.
… to those who took time to let me know that they are with me and feel my pain. thank you. that’s the way life is. you get pain once in awhile to appreciate what you have.
i’m just a little bit little bit ba to? busy with a lot of stuff and trying to squeeze every bit of my energy to attend to everything. hmmmm… can anyone extend the time of the day for me?? can you please make 24 hours to 48? LOL! and can you please make some people less over sensitive? sometimes i get misunderstood. to those who know me well and accepted me as me, they know that my brutally frank attitude is my way of CARING. LOL! oh well…. you just can’t please everyone.
for once, click that play icon of youtube and enjoy PUT YOUR RECORDS ON by CORINNE BAILEY RAE. i woke at 6am this morning despite of lack of sleep BUT i did get to appreciate the warm breeze which welcomed me in my mother’s garden while i sipped my hot chocolate… and the flowers… wow! colors filled my eyes! the orchids seem to bloom during the month of may and they really fill the place with beautiful colors. and you can really hear the birds chirping… really made me smile. ain’t life beautiful?
so i guess i’ll have my hair down, smile at the eyes of adversity and let fate take the driver seat. let me enjoy the scene of life. i’ll find myself eventually somewhere anyway.
have a great day everyone.
Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don’t need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.
Maybe sometimes, we’ve got it wrong, but it’s alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don’t you hesitate.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You’re gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the roadside,
(just relax, just relax)
Don’t you let those other boys fool you,
Got to love that afro hair do.
Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it’s alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don’t you think it’s strange?
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You’re gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
‘Twas more than I could take, pity for pity’s sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don’t even have to try any longer?
Do what you want to.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
