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it seems like this year i have been losing some father figures. they are the ones who left a great marks and some sort of influence to me.

just tonight, i lost another loved one.

he’s the type of person who doesn’t seem to know what fear really is.

i can’t seem to gather my thoughts now. i just want to write here to make me feel okay.

and i really can’t explain why but i can’t seem to get the previous entry out of my mind. makes me more angrier. why? because the one i lost now fought for his country. he was someone who would only mutter about being makabansa or makabayan and he was the reason why at some point in my family’s life, we followed him without hesitations in joining one meaningful event. one of his favorite songs is bayan ko.

that’s why nobody dares, i say again, nobody should dare say that we don’t love the philippines because we almost lost our lives for this country. nobody, especially foreigners, has the right to tell me that we don’t love our country.

i will slap him or her in his face for saying such irrelevant conclusions about my people and how we should act because love for country is not based on wealth alone.

you might be a 1st world country with people sleeping on your money but at least we don’t have a high suicide rate just because life is hard.

at least we don’t lose our faith to God just because we are going through some tough times.

we are not poor. it just happened that our wealth is not based on monetary units. we, as people, are already the wealth of this country.

this is not an entry suited to back my previous entry because i wanted to wait a week before explaining my thoughts about it. i just want to write in here because i am mourning.

I am angry too now because, again,  i lost someone i loved… and he happened to be a soldier.