defying gravity
defying gravity…
there is a reason (or reasons) why i chose to play that song in here. press play first and listen to it before you proceed in reading this entry. after listening to it, go ahead and read. this may not affect you in any way but this song has a lot to offer especially to the ones who have forgotten how it is to be bold, zealous and assertive in reaching certain goals, aspirations and dreams.
a friend of mine asked how i learned to write. you see, i was always a victim of my former teachers’ “desperation” in finding representatives for interclass competitions. when i was in 4th grade, my class adviser just pointed her finger to me and declared that i will be competing for an essay writing contest along with a friend of mine. since i was too afraid to say no, i obliged. i think i was more afraid to be scolded than loosing the said competition. i did my best and guess what? i didn’t win.
when i was in second grade, my PE teacher asked my parents’ permission to allow me in joining the milo marathon race. my parents were hesitant at first but gave their approval anyway. since i was only a kid and didn’t really realize what i was up to, i obliged again. did i win? no.
i was once labeled to be a tomboy because i really wanted to play basketball. everytime my brother played, i always wished that i will have the chance to be in the middle of the court playing as a point guard like the one idolized back then, john paxson.
when my father decided back in 1989 to join the coup de etat, i almost got expelled for “considering the ideals of the rebels”. schoolmates and teachers alike had deafening labels of me which really forced my head to look down while going through the halls of the school. it was a struggle.
when i decided to study in manila, even my parents didn’t think i had the capability to survive the jungle in the city. my best friend had to be my lawyer in defending my decision. of course, eyebrows raised when my cousins heard i had the go signal.
right after i was done with nursing, i asked my cousin who’s registered nurse if she could give me tips on how to deal the licensure exams. she just shrugged and answered, “STUDY EVERYTHING”. she was like that because i finished the course at a lesser time as compared to her. oh by the way, i have been judged wrongly for taking up the course too. why? i don’t know.
what i want to point out is that what you decide for your life to be is up to you. for those things which happened to me in the past, they became the source of motivation for me to improve myself. i never thought i’ll end up writing in here, to end up as one of the fastest runners in school, to become a founder of the girls basketball team and actually win as champions, be a student leader and an official representative in student governance, for being able to glide with life in the jungle within the city called manila or to just simply pass all the licensure exams in nursing in just one take and to simply manage a business. they might be simple as compared to the achievements of others but somehow i’m glad i didn’t just stop where i was left at as a loser.
it was only a few years after i realized the importance of losing. because of losing or being an underdog, i learned to strive and be persevering. because of it i became resilient with change. i adapted well with what i had to endure because i wanted to be something even if i’m a loser. i realized too that the greatest gravity which pulls me down is my own self. because of it also i learned to conquer myself and still am actually. ironically, i became a positive entity out of my negativity. it is through losing which i became a winner.
so there. there goes the reason why i always emphasized that people who are negative shouldn’t be judged harshly because there are reasons behind that attitude. we grow when we are being negative.
i guess i am through with limits. i am done with impossibilities. i don’t want to consider hopelessness as an option much more pity. i will never entertain labels ever again.
i am for my goals, for my dreams and for my life now.
i’ve learned to speak up and air my thoughts. whether i am to be judged or not, it’s fine now with me. i am accountable for myself and for what i determine to be the foremost important decisions to be made.
all for myself.
in case you find yourself losing hope, just go play that song. defy gravity…. don’t think it’s being selfish. it is your right to have a place here on earth and make your presence more worthwhile. by doing that, you’ll give due justice to God… so go defy your gravity
this is one of your greatest posts! at least na-overcome na naton ang stage nga mu ni. it’s like taking centrum sabay hambal sang kaugalingon nga line. pareho sang iya line ni piolo. hehehe
redlan
August 20, 2008 at 5:12 pm
Aloha! I tagged u nga pla hehe
dyanie
August 20, 2008 at 5:51 pm
yay! i love this post too, it’s so inspiring chai!
i do agree na it’s with losing that we get the motivation to give more of ourselves the “next time.” those who always win seem to be overconfident na paglagapak nila, sakit sakit guid. but for those who already know how it feels to be a loser, winning is such a triumph. and losing again is well, just another one of those “not just my cup of tea” moments. hehehe.
Alveel Kaith
August 21, 2008 at 1:24 am
very good post. it echoed my belief that things that doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger. the song is also perfect for this. although its the first time i heard the song the message of strength (you won’t bring me down) is really inspiring.
heads up and have a nice day.
lawstude
August 21, 2008 at 1:31 am
pareho tayo medyo aksidente din ang pagkakadiscover ko.
prinsesamusang
August 21, 2008 at 1:34 am
hey, i just wanted to say that this is a great post. you’re right, we are the only ones who can set limits to what we can achieve. if we allow our imagination and spirit to run free and discover what we can be, we might end up being surprised
caryn
August 21, 2008 at 1:45 am
You’re absolutely right in saying that “the greatest gravity which pulls me down is my own self.” After all, we become who we want ourselves to be:)
sonnetshaven
August 21, 2008 at 2:49 am
“i wanted to be something even if i’m a loser.”
this will be my statement, from now on…
hehe.. pahiram po ng words a.,
isa na namang nakakainspire na entry,
basta po, keep on posting entries like this..
hehehe..ansarap basahin
ayyzzz
August 21, 2008 at 5:02 am
that’s the right attitude, ifm. so few realize that at a young age, so congratulate yourself for having the mindset you have, right now.
it’s true, and i subscribe to the saying that what we are is the result of what we’ve been through. although some people fall through the cracks, some are trapped in the net of negativity.. and they stay that way.
i’m proud of you, kapatid. may God bless your endeavors.
utakmunggo
August 21, 2008 at 7:41 am
oh my, this is what i need right now, thanks for the words.
you created a ripple of change in my perspective.
geezzz, inuman na toh! chze
cliogoddess
August 21, 2008 at 7:56 am
Great post!
And yes this is true — we grow when we are being negative. Because after realizing it, we will know how pessimistic we are.
At some point in my life, I have seen myself so down and helpless. Having all those troubles, I became easily infuriated on any thing and I made myself believe that everything in my future will not turn out how I want it to be. I am having difficulty dealing with all the negative things in my life, yet striving to still come out positive even with all the failures and dilemmas.
I admire you for your courage and determination!
Rhapsody
August 21, 2008 at 7:57 am
ay naging underdog ka rin?….hindi halata *wink*
minsan mas dapat katakutan ang mga naging underdog kasi mga wiser player yan pag natutong lumaban…
(bakit parang magkakambal ang buhay natin?….lol)
nakakarelate ako…..wahahaha
kamotenista
August 21, 2008 at 9:17 am
Oh, this is such a beautiful song, and thanks for sharing it.
This is exactly what I need right now.
Kat Carneo
August 21, 2008 at 10:06 am
nice song. nice post!
inspiring!
Yods
August 21, 2008 at 11:25 am
i like the post.
…been there before but I learned a lot from those experience. I guess every winner has to endure so much hardships and falldowns before he feels the glory. Makes everyone of us appreciate the “fruit” of our labor and savor it better.
Kudos to everyone who stood up after the fall…and won!
marvin
August 21, 2008 at 11:46 am
@ redlan – jutayan lang ko madunlan… di gid ya madula si papa piolo ah. hahahaha! seriously, dapat pasalamat ta nga we fall down sometimes because of falling down, we learn to be sensitive and careful. after learning, singgit dayun sang I WANT TO BE PERFECT! hahahaha!
@ princess dyanie – i got tagged by you! sige, i’ll answer them asap.
@ kaith – i agree! that’s why we have to thank God that we got to be tested too and pruned. we sometimes don’t learn when we don’t fall down.
@ lawstude – the song is sang by idina menzel in a musical show called WICKED. ganyan kaganda ng mga songs na kinakanta ni idina. i have to agree with what you said too. go and go lang sa buhay kasi while we live our lives, we will always have the chance of improving ourselves. thanks ha?
@ prinsesamusang – at least nadiscover, di ba?
ifoundme
August 21, 2008 at 1:44 pm
@ caryn – thank you. sometimes we forget that we are our greatest hurdles. pagnarealize natin yan, i guess sky is the limit.
@ sonnetshaven – the thing we can only control is ourselves. the way we react, the way we respond, the way we think and feel. they are within our control. dapat we should maximize ourselves.
@ ayyzzz -hahahaha! oo ba! if it can help in motivating you, go on. syempre we all want our lives to have some sort of worth in this world or else we will be denying God what’s really due for Him. di ba nga we were made in His own likeness and love?
@ utakmunggo – thank you, momski! yan ata ang resulta ng masyadong maisip at masyadong maraming napagdaanan.
@ clio, the goddess – tara! inuman tayo! heheheh! i hope i was able to help.
ifoundme
August 21, 2008 at 2:07 pm
@ rhapsody – i went through the same with what you had to deal with before. it is really your WILL to improve yourself that will help you push yourself up. minsan talaga hindi maiwasan to have self pity or to make yourself a haven of problems and worries and headaches about life and everything else. sooner or later we will still have to face our monsters so dapat pray and pray lang parati. God is our constant companion in life so dapat parati natin syang kausap.
@ kamotenista – present ka ah! hahaahha! kambal ata tayo na pinaghiwalay at binigay sa mga magulang natin ngayon nung walang maipakain ang mga totoong magulang natin. oo, parati akong underdog. parating inaunderestimate. parating tinitingnan mula ulo hanggang paa na parang iniisip nila eh hindi ko kaya ang mga pinapasukan ko. di nila alam na pag ako gumanti, to the highest level talaga. sige lang… tuloy pa rin ang buhay…. sa atin pa rin ang huling SMILE! hehehe!
@ Kat Corneo – i hope this song inspires you. it’s a very nice song. btw, welcome to my mansion.
@ yods – thank you!
@ marvin – a big YEHEY to all of us!
ifoundme
August 21, 2008 at 2:26 pm
this is an entry that explains maturity to a different level. this is exactly what i’m looking for to have a concrete example on the concept of hardship and sucess! bilib ako sau mare!
i learned a lot from this entry. sa katulad kong marami pang kakaining NFA rice, this one is very inspirational.
mare isa kang guardian angel…
Geisha
August 21, 2008 at 3:26 pm
I so love the song. I have an award for you honey. Claim the badge in my blog and pass it along.
vanessa
August 22, 2008 at 1:28 am
Nice song… And an inspiring testimony!
homebodyhubby
August 22, 2008 at 6:37 am
great entry foundme.
sabi nga through the weakness of others we get stronger and through our wekaness others become stonger spiritually and emotionally. sometimes we ought to know whats best for ourselves but in the end find God has been placing us or reserving us far more thank we expected. i mean we can always be the leader of the band, the winning team, the prom king or queen but why cant we be like these?
it is because when we are in a place where God wants us to be, we excel and this explains why we have engineers different from being a surgeon and different from being a governor, etc.
probably someday ifoundme you’ll excel in writing and a lot of people will be reading your book. o di ba san ka pa? sikat! hehehehe
gmacomics
August 23, 2008 at 6:28 am
@ geisha – mare, kumain ka ng NFA rice kasi masarap din pala. tsaka, mare, ito ata ang resulta ng GOWN. hahaha!
@ vanessa – thanks! i’ll do it as soon as i can have some time…
@ HBH – it is a very nice song
@ GMAcomics – hahahaha! napatawa ako! i want to write a book someday but let’s just see. we’ll have time for that pero feeling ko now is not the right time yet. that’s not a limit ha… just wanting to make sure that i will be giving the best of me… o di ba? hahahha! nangangarap na ako na abutin ang langit. hahaha! no limits nga eh!
ifoundme
August 25, 2008 at 8:44 am
“when i am weak then i am strong”
hehe nalimutan ko kung sino nagsabi niyan, basta nasa bible yan, yan lagi ko sinasabi ko sa aking sarili.
losing is everything, coz losers, they fall behind to stand up and fight after that night, they rise and see the light, the light that is so bright that keeps them alive and gives the passion to live the life, which they eventually win all their upcoming fights, with all their might. right!
ganda ng song. ^^,
marcpogi
August 25, 2008 at 6:13 pm
exactly! i agree with you totally. there is that will and hope and aspiration to reach your goal no matter how much you fall. after all, what’s there to lose?
ifoundme
August 26, 2008 at 8:01 am
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