lemme put stars in your eyes

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3. read at your own risk. it’s pure venting.

I confess. It has become a habit of mine noticing menial things and by saying that, this long list won’t be worthy enough to waste your time. Shhh… this is self-talk time.

I always feel that some people don’t respect me because I am thin and I look very young. Maybe it’s because at first impression I seem to be a snob or maybe shy. Sometimes people don’t take me seriously because I just keep quiet and stay at the sides like as if I do not exist. I don’t really mind being a spectator or being unheard of but just don’t treat me like as if I am not worthy of any respect. Don’t make me feel like as if I am less than I see myself to be because the truth is time has its way of making you a victim of your own prejudices. Ayan! Reklamo na naman. LOL! Hindi po. Naisipan ko lang to kanina.

I have this list of persons whom I want to put starz in their eyes (as what just jack said in his song.) These persons are either too caught up in their own world believing that their clique can’t be penetrated or persons whom I have victoriously made their jaws dropped. It’s just a pity though that there are still persons who think labels are still good enough to define the worth of a being. Too shallow!

1. society page columnist – we’ve been introduced to each other 5 times and every time I see him somewhere he acts like he doesn’t recognize me. Read this mister! I have no intentions of plastering the society page with my face, ok? I have always known that I’m not just the high society type of girl so it’s fine. You changed your mind though about me when you knew that my boyfriend is the nephew of a very famous couple who are respectively a plastic surgeon and a dermatologist. You also glowed when you knew that one of my boyfriend’s best friends is the husband of the daughter of one of the highest ranking public officials in this country. Bwisit ka! Does that mean that my worth is measured through whom I am connected with? Plastik ka! Kahit Tupperware ka eh plastic pa rin. Here are starz for your eyes.
2. mean girls – my friend tagged me once to meet some of her so called friends. I was skeptical at first because although I know her friends by name and face, I don’t really know them personally and they are not really the type of crowd I hang out with. With so much persuasion from her, I decided to accompany her. Oh well, everything ended right after we were introduced to each other. They treated me like a ghost: not existent. I endured that for an hour and it was a good thing that another friend of mine arrived and she excused me from them. Whew! It was only later on I learned that they don’t actually mingle with those who can’t meet their own standard. After a few years, one (let’s name her mean girl A)of the mean girls’ brother became a good friend of mine. Quite the opposite actually of that mean girl. Mean girl A is actually married now and gets pregnant almost every year. And by the way, she’s the one working hard because husband is jobless. Mean girl B’s family became bankrupt. I don’t think I have to say more. Do I have stars for them? Yes, actually, fading stars for them.
3. show off boys– I don’t go out often anymore. I got tired of the same old thing happening over and over but when my brother came back from his vacation, he asked me to go out with our cousins. We did go out and my cousin invited some of his and his wife’s friends. I know that the guys are a little TH (trying hard) and although they are really capable to brag about the things they have, I just don’t get the ego tripping that goes with it. O e ano ngayon kung mayaman kayo? Mahirap naman ako. Hehehe! The whole time we were out, the show off boys just kept quiet like as if they didn’t like our company. The girls were kinda pissed off with their demeanor. I didn’t really care. i know the place anyway and I’m sure I get to see some old faces there. i went out to enjoy and not to be spoiled by any show off guys who thought they were too cool for me (or us) at kung ano man yung mga issues nila. What really was annoying then were the smirks like as if we forced them to go with us. I was not wrong. I found myself in the middle of the bar and viola! ~ guys who were so glad to see me and was really too eager to give me their beso! They were old friends from nursing school, VIP of that place and some boys whom the show off kids look up to… all gwapisimo! The next time me and the show off boys saw each other, they acted like as if we’re very tight. Losers! Here are failing starz for their eyes…
4. friendly user – my not-friend-anymore “friend” favorite past time is to peel you off with things he can get from you to reach his goals. Friendly friends with you when he thinks you can give him something he wants. At one time, I wasn’t able to help him out in his “dream” because I landed in the hospital for over exhaustion. He loathed me like as if I did the worse thing in the universe. But of course, despite of all the things I helped him like planning the whole business thing, writing all the necessary stuff, letting my friend’s name be used for the marketing (without commission) and everything else, he dishes me out because I wasn’t able to give him the money on time. I was no use to him… so here are stars for his eyes since he was so star struck with my friend’s blood connection with someone very important in this country to the point he’d almost lick my shoes to be introduced to that friend of mine. And by the way, he didn’t even bother to revise the words I wrote for the mission vision in their company’s site. Friendly user he is!
5. naïve government employees – now government employees reading this, I’m not talking about you. These are just people whom I have talked to before and had actually showed their true colors by being rude to ordinary people like me. Well, this stopped when I learned to name drop to be able to get quality service. I dropped my parent’s name, to whom they are related to or connected with, and some influential friends’ names. So when you get to meet this kind of person, just name drop and you’ll be fine! Stars for them for being lazily star struck.

So what’s the point of this entry? Nothing. LOL!

Seriously, it’s not really avoidable to be labeled or to be judged with what you have or whom you are connected with but the most important thing is you know were you stand and that you have enough confidence to know that you are worthy of respect… most especially self-respect. People will talk, people will judge but it is still your own perspective of yourself that really matters.

here’s just jack’s stars in your eyes to go with this entry. good night folks and enjoy!