one hand, one heart
randomness… and please bear with what you will be reading here… there’s a reason behind everything
it’s friday night again and i’m back here with my computer after a meeting. i noticed that i have been writing randmonly every after meeting. maybe it’s because another week of work has gone again. although tomorrow it’s still work for me but i can easily get away from it.
i haven’t been back to my bowen therapy for almost 3 weeks already and i think i need it again. i don’t feel any pain yet but i think it would be best to go back for another session….
i’m feeling kinda sentimental now. yes, i am happy because he might be coming home soon. i really can’t wait coz i miss him terribly. he has been working his ass out and has no one to go home to. i know that it was really not his plan to work outside of this country but decided only to do so because of me. he doesn’t know how much i appreciate that effort. oh my… it’s actually more than what i expected him to do because he went an extra mile for me. can you consider jumping to another continent an extra mile? LOL! i guess he really loves me…. i know i’m lucky to have him. i never admitted to him how much my heart melts whenever he feels excited about something or when he complains endlessly about how tired he is.
i guess the strongest storm has already passed us. i don’t want to look back anymore because it was really a tremulous 9 year relationship. can you imagine that? we are already on our 10th year. i never thought that we will be reaching this state considering the events that transpired… i know that i lost a few friends along the way and i know that i have disappointed some people but they know that hard headed as i am, i always end up getting what i want. bratty? no. maybe it’s for the reason that i just know what i want. yeah, that’s just it.
some friends wished it was better that we break up. some friends got used to our fights and always believed that we will always go back to each other. i guess we both knew better than everyone else. we promised each other that no matter what happens, we’re both to stay together. haaay….
and dude, (i’m sure i’ll be damned because i just called you dude. LOL) i’m really looking forward to that day that you long wanted to happen… the day that you will meet me at the altar… i hope you will have the courage to really face them, you know. they already love you because you love me. that doesn’t take much to figure out. just promise them that you will not hurt me because that’s all they want to hear. and you know you’ve been great. i don’t think i have to say that. i saw the turn around. i’m happy and contented with what i noticed. i can say i can die now but that would be unfair. why die when it’s a happy beginning for both of us again?
i have so much to tell you, so much to thank you for and so much love to give to you too. corny, i know, but, well, i’m in love. who gives a damn if i act this way? it’s just us. you and i… remember the time we were watching fireworks over at your place? you do know i love fireworks. makes me act like a little kid surprised with a precious gift. the thought makes me smile. how about that first anniversary celebrated over a plate of pizza and a stack of VCDs. LOL! we were that poor that we can’t even celebrate it properly over a fine dining resto… how about that stressful preparation i had to surprise you for Vday that you got mad because you thought i was not home yet? i had to conjure some friends so that you won’t spoil the surprise!
and can you still remember the time when you initiated that surprise party for me at one of our favorite hang out that you even had our favorite performers sang for me and for the whole group? i was deeply touched with it. i didn’t really expect it because you are really lousy in making surprises. but you did pull it anyway. … and of course… who could ever forget the dozens of roses you always give me? you spoil me a lot with flowers. even if we’re so far away from each other, you still make it a point to surprise me… remember that cake and 2 dozen roses? wow! they melted my heart… actually, it was the effort that melted my heart. i’m sure you really had to bribe my cousin to do everything for you even if both of you won’t admit it.
and yes, i had my way of surprising you too. how about that dinner at home which we all surprised you? the one that you went to supermarket with me to buy the ingredients which until now i couldn’t imagine how on earth you didn’t have a hunch that it was for your birthday. DUH!! how about that “blue” flowers? hahaha! remember that? surprise! surprise! until now i haven’t seen that one but i know that you like it a lot. even your best friend’s wife enjoyed buying it for us. hahaha!
i know HK was the most memorable one. it was when we both decided that we are both free just being us. you and i. that’s when we both decided that every year we will have our own vacation. just you and i again. how about yearly renewal of marriage. hey, i have to remind you though… we still aren’t officially married. LOL! that doesn’t exempt us yet from asking their blessings. and it was only then that we didn’t get to fight with each other. we enjoyed each other’s company and you even laughed at me when i started crying right after i took the exam. stupid you! LOL! you kissed those tears away and made ways to divert my attention away from my worries and anxiety. you hugged me too tightly after the fireworks at disney too… you knew that i love fireworks very much. plus, we didn’t get enough sleep because your friend, K, wouldn’t let us go home unless it was already 3am. well, he treated us several times for dinner anyway. LOL! and we both came home with no voice at all. we just placed our bags and find our individual places to sleep. we were dead tired. hahaha!
well, i miss you, dude. i’m really looking forward to that sunlight to come… that day we will see each other again and hopefully that’s when the official “living happily ever after” begins. one hand, one heart.
i don’t know… i’m just happy… i want to have glass of margarita now… maybe i should go out alone and celebrate on my own. is this bliss? such a beautiful feeling. wouldn’t trade it for anything. if only there is an exact word to describe this incredible feeling and thought…
anyway, i have been looking for this song for the longest time. i hope you like this one. ONE HAND, ONE HEART by DEBBIE GIBSON. I’m sure not everyone have heard of this. you’ll like this, guys. 
