Im trying to see if this gets posted using my phone. If this appears, i have no reason at all not to post entries.
Happy Birthday!!! January 31, 2010
Park Yoon Hwa,
Surprise!!! There’s nothing really extra special in here except that we just want you to greet you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! May you be happy for the rest of your life with more fulfilling things to accomplish and with a life full of fortitude in times of challenges. May God continually bless you in your public and private life and that you will be at your best in everything you want to attain and good health too!
Again, Happy Birthday!!
Myself First January 26, 2010
Moonlight by Yiruma
It’s almost midnight again. Lately it has been a habit of mine to have my thoughts aired in here when it’s quiet and when everyone else is asleep.
I used to write even when I’m being bothered or when cringed with so many things to do. But lately, since I have more time, I tend to make my entries at times like this.
And as I browse through my past entries, it feels like as I’m living a sad life. The truth is it’s not. I just focus on things which I think needed for me to have a different perspective aside from how i assess them. Writing them down help me, in any way, see the other side of the situation.
Just today, I had a hefty lunch with two of my friends, enjoying organic products our province is producing. While devouring on the food, we talked about one recent event which happened to me.
Nothing significant but it gave some insight about a certain portion of my life.
A friend of my ex had shown up in my facebook requesting me to add him in my friends’ list. I felt violated mainly because during my rocky times with my ex, i tried calling and sending sms to this friend. He never picked up the phone nor returned my messages.
You know what? No matter how common friends insist that they are not taking sides, by the decisions and actions they are making, it’s as clear as the sky that they are taking sides. Going on vacations by inviting the other one and not inviting me… posting pictures that has the ex and not pictures with me… these are clear enough that they are taking sides.
I am not demanding anything. I just reacted on the idea about the what they said… that they are not taking sides yet the action speaks the other way.
Who is She? January 22, 2010
I dreamt of a friend asking me why do i hate Kring Kring. The thing is, I don’t know anyone by that name. Who might it be?
One Quiet Night January 21, 2010
and here i am staring in space digging deep into my thoughts about, what else, but my life.
my week didn’t actually start right. a piece of paper which bears bad news can really ruin a good day. as if it wasn’t enough, my grandmother’s doctor told us to be ready for the inevitable. of course, my fighting spirit dropped so low. and if it’s not really adding insult to injury, my cousin sent me a sms telling me that a mass has been found in my aunt’s lungs. she had cancer of the colon. so go figure what it means.
a quiet night is what i really want and i have it now.
surprisingly, i feel peaceful and i’m thankful for this.
i guess the reason behind this is that i was able to cry last monday. i had it all out too with food.
when i go through some challenges, i tend to stay so close to the issue that i can’t see the lesson behind it. the only reassuring thing friends can tell me is that i will become stronger after the storm passes by.
and i asked a friend why i had to be stronger. is it because I will be going through more storms in the future? is it the only point of it all?
