Singularity

Since it’s Valentine’s, i just had lunch with friends.

Happy V Day!

Well, well, well! It’s Valentine’s day and i’m home enjoying the shining rays of the sun hitting my room. It’s such a beautiful day! I’m wondering how the Sydneysiders celebrate this day but i hardly noticed anything yesterday of anything that really caught my attention… Well except for those beautiful roses lining up the side street…

So what can i say? Happy valentine’s day to everyone anyway!

Open on blogging

Maybe im just ridiculously oversensitive. Maybe it’s just being too receptive over something that’s not really happening (imagining??). But sometimes it feels like I’m being stalked all the time in my facebook.

Well it’s okay if there’s no stinge of envy in there that is actually hurtful one way or another. And when i mean envy that’s hurtful, it is when i’m being judged.

So here’s the thing. I will just assume that those are just a product of my imagination and just go on with all of these social media bruhaha. Hmmm… maybe we’ll step on the pedals a little further and take everything a notch higher. Let me blog now — openly. Not here but somewhere in one corner of the univerese.

Let’s get it on!

I miss…

This is it! It’s time to come back and unload everything in here again.

The itch to write hasn’t bugged me for how many months mainly because my plate was always full.

But I don’t want it to be an excuse anymore. Let’s start unloading everything that has occupied my mind for so long already.

The thing is i’m here in St. George Private Hospital now waiting for my friend to be done with her job interview. While I wait for her here in the foyer of the hospital, i couldn’t help but try to observe my surroundings: everybody is sitting quietly on their own without much interaction to those beside them.

It makes me think about my mother and aunts.

In places like this, just give them 5 minutes – 10 minutes the most, and you’ll find them filling the air with laughters or have started to engage a conversation with the person beside them. You’ll be surprised with the kind of information they get from doing that. Any reporter or investigator will be ashamed with how they can extract information.

This makes me kinda miss home. Smiles are not rare and personalities are not cold. People are really talking to each other and not just to themselves.

But it’s really not that bad because i really like the kind of privacy i have and the space i’m being provided like now. I can actually write my thoughts now without being constantly disturbed.

I really miss blogging. I have so much to share and so many stories to brag. It’s really different to place everything in writing because it gives me the views which i couldn’t see when im just thinking. And the plus side of this is that i understand myself more. It helps me be kinder to myself.

So there…

Staying for Good

There’s going to be a new blog but I have decided to keep this.  Ifoundme will still be a hiding place where I can bare my angst and very personal sentiments.  I know I will never get tired making this a solace of my sensitive issues or the simple joys which, I believe, will only get spoiled if I announce them to the world.

 

Anniversary

2 days from now will be this blog’s anniversary. I know i have been neglectful and i really wish i wrote everything worthwhile in here to at least chronicle what had transpired but i dont know why that usual itch to write didnt bug me at all.

I was busy. No doubt. Yet i should have set a time to ponder and write.

But more than anything else, i must say that i am living life now.

For what it’s worth, i am still thankful that this blog exist.

More punching and kicking to happen in the future. But as of now, happy anniversary to me and my blog. Yey!

Plans

I think it’s time to plan things out. I already spent a week resting to recuperate from the 4 weeks of night duty of which i couldn’t do anything for even just some sort of adjustment. I must tell you that the first two weeks of it was pure disaster but i’m quite proud of myself for surviving it.

It’s really time now to move on and get things going. The goals now actually are to get out of Sydney as required and to be able to find work which suits my preferences.

I hope i will get things done in a timely manner without causing too much stress for me.

Maybe It’s a Thing Called…

Spent the whole afternoon at Bondi beach and when we passed by the city, he insisted on buying 2 packs of coke zero with each pack containing 30 cans. Just for me. It’s either he’s crazy or he’s crazy.

Cool Change

A lot has happened since my last post and i didnt have the time to actually sit down, think and write.

I’ve relocated and I have been trying to make the most of what i got here with the hopea that i will be able to blend in to my new life without feeling overwhelmed.

As of the moment, my professional life is on pause due to some processing concerns but everything is moving quite smoothly.

Big thanks to everyone who made this transition a little less dramatic for me.

Be still.

You have to learn how to enjoy life.  God has a lot to offer and you are setting limits to what He has planned for you. Open your heart and mind that there are grander things in store for you.  God created you in His likeness, therefore, He wants only what’s best for you and according to His standard, not anyone else’s.

Stop and see what’s surrounding you. Are they that bleak? Is it really worse? Are they useless? Don’t you have any use of them? Discard those which give you pain, insecurities and hopelessness. Hold on to love, hope, warmth, resiliency, fortitude, to your dreams and to your God.

You have no other choice anyway. God will still open the gates of heavens for you and pour you with all of His blessings and love.  You are not to be left barren. Goodness and blessings will fill the void you are feeling and the abundance of these will leave you wondering where to place them all.

He has already shown you His greatness before and He will continue to do so as you live your life. He will always make His presence known to you. Always.

So let worry leave you alone. You have God’s blessed assurance.  It is gigantically sure compared to what the world can offer you.

Be still. He is your God.

Thinking More and More

Taking some time off from the randomness of my work made me realize how my world turned around.  Everything seemed to fall into their right places.  I guess I wouldn’t need to complain anymore except for….

Let me get back to you on that. Let me think again if it’s really worth writing about.

Lying

When a person trusts you and you lie to him/her, it diminishes his/her trust on you.

Happy

I’m happy.

Love

Love hinders death. Love is life. All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love. Everything is, everything exists, only because I love. Everything is united by it alone. Love is God, and to die means that I, a particle of love, shall return to the general and eternal source.

~ Leo Tolstoy

Best Friends

It’s been awhile, I know!

I don’t want to justify my absences in here anymore nor the loss of having to meet my own expectations. It’s already enough that I still think of this blog and even have the time to write now.

Well, now, it’s one of those times again when I retrospect.