There’s going to be a new blog but I have decided to keep this. Ifoundme will still be a hiding place where I can bare my angst and very personal sentiments. I know I will never get tired making this a solace of my sensitive issues or the simple joys which, I believe, will only get spoiled if I announce them to the world.
2 days from now will be this blog’s anniversary. I know i have been neglectful and i really wish i wrote everything worthwhile in here to at least chronicle what had transpired but i dont know why that usual itch to write didnt bug me at all.
I was busy. No doubt. Yet i should have set a time to ponder and write.
But more than anything else, i must say that i am living life now.
For what it’s worth, i am still thankful that this blog exist.
More punching and kicking to happen in the future. But as of now, happy anniversary to me and my blog. Yey!
I think it’s time to plan things out. I already spent a week resting to recuperate from the 4 weeks of night duty of which i couldn’t do anything for even just some sort of adjustment. I must tell you that the first two weeks of it was pure disaster but i’m quite proud of myself for surviving it.
It’s really time now to move on and get things going. The goals now actually are to get out of Sydney as required and to be able to find work which suits my preferences.
I hope i will get things done in a timely manner without causing too much stress for me.
Spent the whole afternoon at Bondi beach and when we passed by the city, he insisted on buying 2 packs of coke zero with each pack containing 30 cans. Just for me. It’s either he’s crazy or he’s crazy.
A lot has happened since my last post and i didnt have the time to actually sit down, think and write.
I’ve relocated and I have been trying to make the most of what i got here with the hopea that i will be able to blend in to my new life without feeling overwhelmed.
As of the moment, my professional life is on pause due to some processing concerns but everything is moving quite smoothly.
Big thanks to everyone who made this transition a little less dramatic for me.
You have to learn how to enjoy life. God has a lot to offer and you are setting limits to what He has planned for you. Open your heart and mind that there are grander things in store for you. God created you in His likeness, therefore, He wants only what’s best for you and according to His standard, not anyone else’s.
Stop and see what’s surrounding you. Are they that bleak? Is it really worse? Are they useless? Don’t you have any use of them? Discard those which give you pain, insecurities and hopelessness. Hold on to love, hope, warmth, resiliency, fortitude, to your dreams and to your God.
You have no other choice anyway. God will still open the gates of heavens for you and pour you with all of His blessings and love. You are not to be left barren. Goodness and blessings will fill the void you are feeling and the abundance of these will leave you wondering where to place them all.
He has already shown you His greatness before and He will continue to do so as you live your life. He will always make His presence known to you. Always.
So let worry leave you alone. You have God’s blessed assurance. It is gigantically sure compared to what the world can offer you.
Be still. He is your God.
Taking some time off from the randomness of my work made me realize how my world turned around. Everything seemed to fall into their right places. I guess I wouldn’t need to complain anymore except for….
Let me get back to you on that. Let me think again if it’s really worth writing about.
Love hinders death. Love is life. All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love. Everything is, everything exists, only because I love. Everything is united by it alone. Love is God, and to die means that I, a particle of love, shall return to the general and eternal source.
~ Leo Tolstoy
It’s been awhile, I know! 
I don’t want to justify my absences in here anymore nor the loss of having to meet my own expectations. It’s already enough that I still think of this blog and even have the time to write now.
Well, now, it’s one of those times again when I retrospect.
I have 8 weeks to do what I want. I really want to make the most of these times. So what should I do?
* Sometimes there are things that you just have to give up. No justifiable reasons. Just need to let go.
* Don’t be afraid to hold on to happiness. You deserve it.
* A lot of people will exert their effort to talk about you but won’t even lift a finger to help you. So do what you want, what you can and what you hope for. They’re going to talk whether you like it or not.
* Victory is yours whenever you reach your goals. So don’t be afraid to go after them.
* small victories are as great as big victories.
* Sometimes situations that hurt you are actually the doorway to great opportunities. They become a turning point for beautiful things to unfold.
* Sometimes failures are necessary to clear out the cluttered way to success.
* Nobody is really stopping you from fulfilling your plans. If somebody does, s/he’s actually wasting his/her time from fulfilling his/her own.
One more week and I’m done with something! Woot!
When I’m done, I’ll contemplate for a day about what to do with my next war.
I’ve actually thought about some things which I wanted to do but I want to write it in here so that I will be reminded about them.
Since everyone’s busy, might as well use the time creating plans I’ve long placed on hold.
1. Cooking – I’ve already asked my high school classmate for the secret recipe of our favorite burger, Wimpys, near our school before. I hope I will be able to do it well because I really like it and my best guy friend, Ton, has been craving for one too. I already collected a few recipes ranging from dimsum to desserts and I can’t wait to try them.
2. I recently got hold of Kindle and I think I’m falling in love with reading all over again! Being alone is not boring anymore!
3. While I get amused by the happiness I get from simple yet satisfying things, I know I have to focus some time and give my 100% to the system I want to implement here in our office. It needs help from my friend, Marie, and I know she’s really, really good at it. But I want her to do it when she’s not busy because I know her hands are always full.
4. Write! Write! Write! I really miss writing here! I want my writing to evolve from being dramatic and sad to being happy because I’m really happy now.
5. I’m definitely going back to yoga. Too much back pain is really a good push already to have the benefits of yoga. After I’m done with my schedule appointment on May 7th, I’m definitely heading back to that.
6. Make my wish list / want list / bucket list and not to be embarrassed about it. Jeez! I don’t know why I get embarrassed about this. Maybe a little visual board can help this so that it can be a constant reminder when I feel bored.
8. Organize my planned businesses. I really couldn’t afford to delay them. I have to do them already.
Would these things be enough to fill the 2nd quarter of this year? I have two months left to do this. Maybe I can!
